Depressive Post

12 03 2008

Feeling a bit depressive today.

Work is dull – especially since it’s just me and a bunch of empty offices no lie. Ok, well the receptionist is here but that’s it.  Trying to keep spirits up.

Dont know why it is – the stress maybe? I’ve been bringing work home most nights now – but I just have been slowly and destructively questioning everything I’ve done & am doing.  I didn’t want to bring it up because I know there are a few of you out there who are currently looking for jobs.  I don’t want to depress or scare you. 

I just feel like I had this great life planned out from the day I turned six.  Now I feel a bit off track. Unfulfilled. Lonely. Frumpy.

My birthday is in a week. I should be psyched! Dancing in my chair. Freakedout excited. Planning planning planning for a huge bash.  Maybe it’s because I don’t have anything planned.  Trying to work around work schedules and spring break schedules of the few people I actually like… means we’re aiming for a party 3rd wk in April. boo.  Dont get me wrong, I’m not down because I’m afraid of getting old. I’ve never really understood that bit.  I love my birthday.  I love getting older.  (just for you CL:) :::le sigh:::

Plus Card – The jealousy kicked in.  I can’t help it.  Roomie is on the phone from the moment she steps in the apt at night now.  It used to be just NB… then became a call with NB followed by one from PhotoGuy… Now it’s both calls plus this random player she let stay the night but not in her pants who she can’t stand but loves flirting with.  Oi.  I need someone to call and chat with.  Preferably male, single, and funny.  Taking names and numbers!




3 responses

13 03 2008

It’s been a long week…if no one with junk in their pants appears, I could do a girly phone chat as a substitute! We definitely need to get together soon!

13 03 2008

still not liking getting older. i agree. when i was little, i though that by the time i was 22, i’d be married, with a nice house and a cute dog (maybe a couple cats). funny how reality squashes all that. oh well, the best we can do is put one foot forward!

and be happy about birthdays, they’re fun! except when they’re mine, of course. it’ll be fun….

13 03 2008

wb – thanks! I might take you up on that girly phone chat. we do need to get together soon. come visit to celebrate my bday? … still need to plan that.

cl – married at 22??? you’re joking right? what about all the stupid mistakes you have yet to make?

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